Thursday, 29 November 2007Greetings from The Thin MannYes I am thinner than a thin stick so I refuse to look in a mirror
and gaze instead at my round, rosy, sing song smiley grandaughter.
Thank you my dear friends for all your good wishes and concern for me. I am most grateful. Presently I spend a few days in Binalong then a few days in Canberra. Last week I was at home, this week at Julian's in Canberra; hospitals, specialists, testings, plans of action etc.
Whilst
my type of cancer has no cure presently, there are treatments that
alleviate the pain and improve the quality of my life.
Whilst it
is a bummer being ill it is also quite interesting. It is fascinating
to enter the world of the medical specialist, a close interconnected
world of humane gentle people.
This week is establishing what
kind of pancreatic cancer I have, rare or common. The establishment of
its kind, determines what type of Kemo zapping I will receive.
Fortunately my hair will not drop out. By next Tuesday they will know and zapping will begin.
Over
Christmas I should be at my worse, more tired than I am now, but things
pick up as the new year begins. Pain alleviated, appetite returns and
the Thin Mann gains weight; energy returns, normality is resumed. A few years of life left in the old dog yet.
Whilst I am quite tired presently and somewhat preoccupied with pain management, I am in good spirits. I am most grateful for my splendid network of friends, wonderfully cheering. Thank you. I am so lucky to live in Binalong I knew a small community would be good to live in. Also, in a small community cancer is not uncommon. In a suburb one never knows whose got what, but in a village all the variations of cancer become manifest. No use being sorry for one's self, always someone else worse off.
I am well cared for, Julian keeps you all informed, my dear friend Leonie drives me here and there.
Christmas party time is coming up make sure my dear friends that you have a great time. I appreciate every lovely thought and contact from you, wonderful. Please excuse the time it is taking me to respond, all my spare energy has been taken up with medical organising, the bureaucracy of the health community demands it's stack of paper to be filled in and filed. But I love you all. Chat to you soonish.
Love Gillian. XXXX
Thursday, 27 December 2007
Fatigue and pain...
Hello all
I am amazed how quickly I become so tired. The
slightest things tire me - eating, walking to the loo, picking up the
phone, saying hello, sitting up i bed, sometimes just speaking.
So this means I am unable to converse for very long - this is unexpected.
I
am very happy to receive messages, greetings and all those lovely
things. But please do not take offence if I don't message back
immediately, or can't take a call. It's nothing personal.
The
other big experience is pain. I have medication of course but it is
unpredictable and is a constant. It goes away now and then of course,
but refuses to stay away.
I'm hanging in there and don't wish to sound morbid.
Sending my love and appreciation to all my dear friends.
Gillian
Saturday, 29 December 2007
Goodbye my dear friends
Not long before she passed, Gillian said "Goodbye, Goodbye my dear friends".
Gillian passed away at 6:00pm, 29 December 2007. |
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